TRUTH SHE TOLD (2023)

Released independently in 2023, Truth She Told introduced Roskamala’s multidisciplinary approach to storytelling across music, film, visual direction and performance. Conceived as a connected creative world, the project brought together sound, image, atmosphere and narrative as a unified expression. The release marked several firsts, including her debut EP, large-scale visual storytelling work, and directorial debut through the music video Kiss Me Amnesia. Developed during a transformative period of her life, Truth She Told established the foundation of an artistic voice defined by emotional honesty, cinematic storytelling and a deep interest in the human experience.

Out Of The Maze
Chameleon
Beautiful Disease
Kiss Me Amnesia
Kiss Me Amnesia Part ll
Loving Mess

Chameleon

  • A million shades
    The colors fade within the winds of change
    Seeking answers for unasked questions
    A forever empty cup can never be filled
    From what is missing

    My colors unfold by your permission
    And time’s running out
    It’s not the life I want
    This gotta end once and for all

    So love me or leave me
    I’m a little bit of everybody
    I don’t want to be somebody
    I am me but who are we
    I’m mistaken identity
    A chameleon tries to be free

    Take a look at both sides and see
    There will always be uncertainty
    It doesn’t matter yellow, green, or blue
    The combination of you will always be true

    Remember the inner child inside of you
    Don’t let anyone take that away
    Not you. Not them. Not anybody else
    ’Cause you are not alone

    So love me or leave me
    I’m a little bit of everybody
    I don’t want to be somebody
    I am me but who are we
    I’m mistaken identity
    A chameleon…

    Every star shines in the dark (Ah ha)
    It’s that fire in your heart (Yes, it is)
    If you don’t know where to start (Oh yeah)
    Just believe in who you are ’cause (Mmm)
    It’s okay to not be okay (Be okay)
    To feel you don’t belong

    I am just who I am

  • Chameleon was inspired by Roskamala’s experience of adapting to different environments, expectations and versions of herself throughout life. The song explores the tension between belonging and authenticity—the feeling that acceptance often comes at the cost of self-expression.

    At the time, she felt that belonging required a choice: to change herself in order to fit into the world around her, or to remain true to herself and risk standing apart. It was a choice she never fully accepted. Through shifting colors and identities, Chameleon became a reflection on individuality, uncertainty, and the search for a place where one can belong without losing who they are.

  • In Chameleon, the chameleon represents adaptation, identity and survival. Roskamala felt like a chameleon from childhood—changing parts of herself in order to be accepted within her family, at school and in society. At the time, hiding aspects of her authentic self felt necessary to avoid rejection.

    Through the symbol of a chameleon, the song explores the experience of constantly adapting to different people and environments while searching for a sense of belonging. Beneath its shifting colors, Chameleon reflects on the tension between acceptance and authenticity, asking how much of ourselves we reshape in order to fit in.

Out of the Maze

  • I wake up every morning
    Looking like st**
    A cup of coffee
    A must or I’m a bch**

    I know exactly what to do with my life
    But sometimes stuck and pissed
    It’s gonna change, yeah, today
    I promise to seal it with a kiss

    My mama’s lessons echo three times a day
    Been living out the opposite of all she said
    A revolution of thoughts in my head
    Stop mumbling, throwing a fit, get out of the maze

    Ma ma ma ma ma messy loop
    Da da da dizzy loop
    Ma ma ma ma ma messy loop
    Da da da dizzy loop

    I wear the clothes they’re hating
    They’re always saying don’t
    I feel the most belonging
    When I am alone

    I know exactly what to do with my life
    But sometimes stuck and pissed
    It’s gonna change, yeah, today
    I promise to seal it with a kiss

    My mama’s lessons echo three times a day
    Been living out the opposite of all she said
    A revolution of thoughts in my head
    Stop mumbling, throwing a fit, get out of the maze

    Ma ma ma ma ma messy loop
    Da da da dizzy loop
    Ma ma ma ma ma messy loop
    Da da da dizzy loop

    Dizzy loop
    Dizzy loop

  • Out of the Maze came from a moment of honesty when Roskamala realized there had to be more to life than repeating the same patterns every day. The “mama” and “dada” dizzy loops represent the expectations, routines and ways of living often passed down through family and society.

    The song explores the tension between comfort and change, reflecting the decision to step beyond familiar cycles in search of a life that feels more authentic. Out of the Maze is about questioning inherited patterns and finding the courage to choose a different path.

  • Following the release of Truth She Told in 2023, Roskamala found herself reflecting on patterns that seemed to repeat despite her efforts to grow and move forward. In the song, “the maze” represents the feeling of being caught within familiar cycles—returning to the same thoughts, emotions and experiences while searching for a different way through.

    Out of the Maze explores the tension between staying within what is familiar and stepping into the unknown. The maze becomes a symbol of the patterns we inherit, repeat and eventually question as we search for a more authentic path forward.

Kiss Me Amnesia

  • When you know just how the wind blows
    It keeps you up at night
    I begged Love for second chances
    But fallin’ in just got me hurt
    ’Cause every time the well was dry

    I’ve tried and tried a thousand times
    Can’t get back the things that I’ve learned
    ’Cause I know I’ll get burned
    Watchin’ my heart beating inside
    The bottle that my curse designed first
    And I just make it worse, worse, worse, worse

    Kiss me Amnesia, kiss me Amnesia
    Tear out the broken pieces stuck in my mind
    Kiss me Amnesia, kiss me Amnesia
    Let me forget a memory for awhile

    I run from reality to fiction
    My identity goes back and forth
    Put out the fire that I’ve been through
    Rewrite the lines on every page
    Let them be empty like before

    I’ve tried and tried a thousand times
    Can’t get back the things that I’ve learned
    ’Cause I know I’ll get burned
    Watchin’ my heart beating inside
    The bottle that my curse designed first
    And I just make it worse

    Kiss me Amnesia, kiss me Amnesia
    Tear out the broken pieces stuck in my mind
    Kiss me Amnesia, kiss me Amnesia
    Let me forget a memory for awhile

    ’Cause I am more, so much more
    And I am more, and I’ll be yours
    If you close your eyes, and I’ll close mine
    ’Cause I am more and I’ll be yours

    Kiss me, Amnesia
    Kiss me, Amnesia
    Oh

    Kiss me, Amnesia, kiss me, Amnesia
    Tear out the broken pieces stuck in my mind
    Kiss me Amnesia, kiss me Amnesia
    Let me forget a memory for awhile

    Forget tonight
    Face it again tomorrow
    Forget tonight
    Face it again tomorrow

  • Kiss Me Amnesia was inspired by a period of reflection when Roskamala began questioning how life had changed from the person she once knew herself to be. Looking back on a long and complicated journey, she wondered whether it would be possible to return to a simpler version of herself before certain experiences reshaped her perspective.

    What if there were an amnesia pill that could erase a painful memory and allow you to start again? From that idea, Kiss Me Amnesia became an exploration of memory, identity and the desire to escape the weight of the past, if only for a moment. The song reflects the tension between wanting to move forward and wishing certain experiences had never happened at all.

  • In Kiss Me Amnesia, “amnesia” is not about literally forgetting the past. It represents the desire for temporary relief from painful memories, emotional burdens and experiences that can feel overwhelming in the moment.

    The song explores a question many people face at some point in their lives: If we could erase our most difficult memories, would it bring peace? While painful experiences often shape resilience, maturity and wisdom, they can also leave wounds that take time to heal. Kiss Me Amnesia reflects the tension between wanting to move forward and wanting relief from what has already happened. At its core, the song explores the relationship between memory and healing, and the role our experiences play in shaping who we become.

Loving Mess

  • Rain drops at two in the morning
    It’s just me no you and it’s boring
    I don’t know how loneliness feels
    But some thoughts are just so real

    So I glance at the ceiling
    A symphony started playing
    My shaky compass wants to lead me to you
    Hear a knocking on my door babe I know it’s you

    Let’s be fools
    Break the rules
    If you make me fall for you
    See what this loving mess can do

    See what this loving mess can do
    For us…
    The game begins at
    5 then 4 then 3 and 2
    And to 1

    It’s kind of awkward when I’m sleeping
    Waking up my skin is beaming
    Thought my ideas were lit
    But I must admit they’re st**

    You spent the night
    You are here and
    Nothing compares to this feeling
    Yeah, player two is ready to jump in
    Yeah, get into this bed we’re snuggling

    Let’s be fools
    Break the rules
    If you make me fall for you
    See what this loving mess can do

    See what this loving mess can do
    For us
    The game begins at 5 then 4 then 3 and 2 and to 1

    So I glance at the ceiling
    A symphony started playing
    My shaky compass wants to lead me to you
    Hear a knocking on my door babe I know it’s you

    Let’s be fools
    (Let’s be fools)
    Break the rules
    If you make me fall for you
    See what this loving mess can do

    (Loving mess can do)
    (Loving mess can do)

    See what this loving mess can do
    For us
    The game begins at 5 then 4 then 3
    And 2 and to 1

    It’s a sign
    Will you try
    Burn our fears
    And save the tears

    Do you care if it’s a house of cards
    Do you mind if it doesn’t last
    (Loving mess can do)

    The game begins at 5 then 4 then 3 and 2
    And to 1
    If you make me fall for you
    See what this loving mess can do

  • Loving Mess explores the tension between protecting oneself from disappointment and remaining open to connection. Inspired by themes of self-belief, vulnerability and uncertainty, the song reflects the tendency to avoid what is unfamiliar, even when it may lead to something meaningful.

    Loving Mess is about taking a chance on connection without knowing the outcome. Through its playful and lighthearted tone, the song embraces the imperfect and unpredictable nature of relationships and the willingness to step beyond fear and into possibility.

  • In Loving Mess, the word “mess” represents the imperfect and often unpredictable nature of being human. The song acknowledges that love, growth and relationships rarely unfold in a neat or orderly way. Instead, they are often shaped by uncertainty, vulnerability and contradiction.

    The “loving mess” reflects the idea that a person can be imperfect, unfinished or still finding their way while remaining fully capable of love and connection. The song embraces the beauty of imperfection and the possibility of connection despite it.

Beautiful Disease

  • In the dark I want you to drug me
    When there’s no sound, I want you to fill me up
    When you love me I want you to love me more
    And tell me nothing I could crave could ever be too much

    I’m an easy prisoner and I don’t need a key
    You don’t need no other pretty face but me

    Pity my heart. Deliver my soul
    I’m suffocating. Losing myself
    In the sea of jagged tears
    Kiss me there. Come get me here
    I suffer to exist and I admit I can’t breathe without this

    With your eyes I’ll be emerald and violet
    With your lips I’ll be infinite as stars
    There’s no escape against your skin
    I’m my wildest if I’m honest
    I am ready for us to paint our scars

    I’m an easy prisoner and I don’t need a key
    You don’t need no other pretty face but me

    Pity my heart. Deliver my soul
    I’m suffocating. Losing myself
    In the sea of jagged tears
    Kiss me there. Come get me here
    I suffer to exist and I admit
    I can’t breathe without this

    Disease rescues me
    Sets me free
    Beautiful Disease

    I want you to cradle me
    Defend me from the terror of the night
    Rescue me from monsters chasing
    Oohh all through my dreams so I’m okay
    Although I’m awake

    Pity my heart. Deliver my soul
    I’m suffocating. Losing myself
    In the sea of jagged tears
    Kiss me there. Come get me here
    I suffer to exist and I admit
    I can’t breathe without this
    Disease rescues me. Sets me free
    Beautiful Disease

    Beautiful Disease
    Beautiful Disease
    Beautiful Disease
    Beautiful Disease

  • Beautiful Disease was the first song Roskamala ever wrote. For the first time, she found a way to put her thoughts and emotions onto paper rather than carrying them silently within herself.

    Written during one of the most difficult periods of her life, the song was inspired by a past lover but was never intended to be a love song. Instead, Beautiful Disease captures a single moment marked by longing, dependence, vulnerability and emotional turmoil. The song reflects the search for comfort, escape and connection.

  • In Beautiful Disease, the “disease” is not a literal illness. It represents the patterns, attachments and emotional dependencies that can feel impossible to let go of, even when they cause pain. The song explores the way people are often drawn to what is familiar, returning to the same thoughts, feelings and relationships because they provide a sense of comfort, even when that comfort comes at a cost.

    Beautiful Disease explores the tension between attachment and freedom, and the human tendency to hold on to what is familiar, even when a part of us knows it may be time to let go. The title reflects the contradiction at the heart of the song: something can feel comforting, beautiful and necessary while also keeping us from moving forward.